to surviving the odds!

We all survive differently—through different struggles and seasons of life. I created this blog as a place of honesty, healing, and connection. I began writing so my son could one day read my truth; what I didn’t expect was how healing it would be for me and how much others would connect with it.

Although much of my writing started with recovery and substance abuse, it now includes motherhood, mental health, advocacy, and everyday life. My hope is that anyone who comes here will see pieces of themselves in these words and find meaning, hope, and healing.

This space is a reminder that no matter what you’re facing—addiction, mental health, parenting, trauma, relationships, or loss—you are not alone. We can all survive the odds.

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My Story

For over 20 years, I lived in active addiction while battling untreated mental health conditions like bipolar disorder, PTSD, depression, ADHD, and anxiety. That combination proved lethal. I faced consequences, heartbreak, and isolation—painful, shameful experiences I won’t detail here.

The guilt nearly destroyed me, but it also pushed me toward change. I reached a breaking point where I begged God either to take me out of this world or give me the strength to get clean. By grace, I chose recovery.

When I finally got clean, it wasn’t the first time—but this time was different. Each step was a fight, and seeing others lost to addiction made me choose freedom and life. Recovery is still a daily battle, but I believe in myself and remain committed to the journey.

I don’t know where my disease began—what came first, the chicken or the egg?—but I do know that I face both addiction and mental health struggles. And I’ve learned that I can treat them both with the same tools: recovery, therapy, and medication management. Without diligence in both areas, I can easily slip back into old patterns.

Recovery is possible—for anyone, anywhere. That is my hope with this blog: to share my story honestly and create a place where others feel less alone.